March 11, 2008

Fighting With Brer Ate My Day

So today was a day of fighting with Brer for the whole day.
I don’t want to state his position. I think I get it, but I worry about sparking more fighting. So I’ll just talk about my side, I don’t know. Time to test having a break here. Go under it by clicking on the post title for more about this. Otherwise, I dunno, tune in tomorrow for more rambling about Smash Brothers or something.

It just seemed so out of character and yet not, and that’s why it all worried me. I’ve always seen him as a very accepting guy. Very… open. Not like… anything was okay, but anything within reason was… and then here’s this, and it’s… I couldn’t think of it as anything but a wide-reaching attack on people’s intelligence. And it’s not the people I worry about, it’s the persons. It was prejudice. It was… whatever the word is that’s like racism for a group that’s not connected by race… discrimination? Is that it? I don’t know. Anyway, it wasn’t something I could stand for… and it wasn’t something I felt he could really mean… except he kept backing it up in his usual ways, and it did connect with his normal modes of thinking…
I don’t know, it was a combination of the attack being towards people I know and love dearly and the idea that someone I love so much could act like that… say something that I didn’t just disagree with, but couldn’t stand for because of how it was said and being used… that really upset me. And we fought, and fought, and fought. And I got really really angry.
It sucked.
We ended it just a few minutes ago, and I think it got taken care of. I finally just said I thought it was like that, and he tried rewording it, and when he did, suddenly, it wasn’t a flat out attack and more of a statement, and one I could agree with for the most part. Also, it would be difficult for anyone who wasn’t fanatical crazy to be insulted by that statement. So the whole situation diffused… I hope.
We have unanswered threads of conversation, though, I suppose. I have unresolved issues about how we fight and argue that bother me, but probably not him… I don’t think that necessarily needs to be revisited. We have the topic of “What I believe” which I was hesitant to share because I didn’t want him attacking it with his
No.
like he does the other things when we get all argumentative and angry, at least on my side. That we should probably revisit, though…
Anyway, I have a caffeine headache, so I should head to bed… I don’t know if any of that made sense, but I wanted to ramble about it some more… for better or worse.

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