December 30, 2009

A Step Forward

Well… okay… I guess I did go see a psychologist who has very much experience with gender identity issues Monday.
Yeah, I guess I am going to be seeing her weekly now.

I… yeah.

I mean, I really like this woman. She is just… very happy that I’m there. That positive energy does so, so much for me when this shit is so hard, expensive, and inevitably conflict-creating. I don’t need another thing to keep me away.
I even screwed this first meeting up: I got completely lost trying to find her office, and in the end, I wasted over half my session driving around in St. Louis. It was kind of my fault. I didn’t leave super-early, like I should have, because I was worried that I would sit in the parking lot for an hour and go insane with worry, which… was the last thing I wanted. So I didn’t, and I was late. Still, she was very understanding, and wonderful. It’s going to be a good thing.

It’s all going to be a good thing. This is the start. I… well, I sure as hell waited to the last possible minute of the year, of the decade, to start fixing this… but hey, at least I did it, right?
It’s been a long, long time coming. It’s certainly not any easier. But… yeah.

Deep breath now. Here we go.

Oh, wow — congratulations! My experience has shown that no matter how bad your problems are, it’s always comforting to know that at least you’re getting something done about it. I really hope this works out for you. :)

Solidarity, comrade! *fistbump*

Comment by Lobst — December 30, 2009 @ 7:19 am

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