The Blogtastic Blogfest That Is Getmeoutofthis.net!

My mood has really been up and down recently. I’ll have a fantastic week, then a week when I’ll feel like garbage, then a week where I’m kind of just tired, and then one where I go back and forth constantly… I do my best to keep my shit together.

Still, I have some feel good stories to share about how awesome people in my life are, so I think I will.

Story one is a theoretical. Let’s say I still worked at… you know what? Fuck that bullshit. I do work at Kohl’s. At this point, they aren’t going to cut me loose and try to replace me on my class with 6 weeks left. Yes, I still work at Kohl’s. Anyway, the other day, I found out that I have become the Superstar for the month of March. (Superstar is like Employee of the Month, only there’s two of them a month, because why not.) This is voted on by everyone at the store. However, my ad set team has created a voting block, because why not? They tend to pick someone they feel deserves it every month and get them one of the Superstar slots. I normally don’t involve myself with it because, I dunno. I’m just enough management to feel like I’d be manipulating their votes, and they tend to discuss it while I’m working on other things anyway. The point is, I had no idea this was happening beforehand, and I knew the voting block of my team had decided to give it to me.
So, of course, I thank everybody for voting me Superstar during our break. Everyone is all awesome and supportive. Jane especially speaks up, and she says, “We did that back on that night when you were really down. Well, I mean, that’s not the only reason, you deserve it, but we wanted you to know we appreciate you.”
It kind of knocked me over.
Normally, when I get to work and feel a little shitty, the routine of work tends to draw me out of it, or at least let me ignore it for awhile. There was a night in early March, though, where I was just feeling completely defeated and terrible, and basically apologized for being low energy. I could tell everyone was worried about me, but that they’d go out of their way this much… that meant something. It’s great to know I have such great friends at work.

Of course, I have them at home, too. Story two. I was at work, and worrying like crazy about talking to my parents more about transitioning. I’m about to start the name change process with a court hearing next week. It’ll be a little before it officially takes effect, but it’ll be rolling. Things will be happening. I’m really worried about telling them that it’s hitting, since so much other stuff has been going on. I was driving myself crazy, and Brer was being Brer (meaning supportive, but his viewpoint is extremely biased at this point so when I’m really out of it, I have trouble taking what he says on this kind of thing seriously). I randomly texted my brother about this stuff.
His immediate response was if him and Shauna could be there for me at the court thing to support me. I didn’t even explain it well, likely, so he didn’t know all the details, but he wanted to be there for me. Shauna did too. I texted her a thank you, since Jonathan was speaking for both of them and I appreciated her support too, and she made it clear, like Jonathan, that they are fully behind me. Heh, I got so focused on the family members who might be an issue that I forgot about everyone who’s right there with me already. I tend to do that. It’s nice to be smacked around and reminded.

I know some pretty great people. I really shouldn’t let my stupidity make me forget that.