December 16, 2008
De-stressing
For the first time in a long while, I am relaxed.
I don’t think it’s any huge revelation that this semester has stressed the shit out of me. I was in shitty moods and generally having a bad time. I mean, I was keeping it together? But I never had time to just sit back and recover.
Now that the semester is over, and I’ve had several days to just be completely and utterly lazy, I’m starting to feel kind of normal again. Damn, but I missed it.
It does kind of scare me for the future, though. I never want to be that busy on a permanent basis. I always want to be able to take days every once and awhile to just sit back and enjoy the wonderful nothingness. Is it going to be that way? Am I going to be able to find a job where I can just sit back and relax every once and awhile? I mean, I don’t think that’s completely unrealistic, and I don’t want to be greedy. I’m fine with working. I need some working to keep me from feeling completely useless. But I can’t just be without leisure, you know? All work and no play…
I don’t know. No matter what, though, I am feeling a whole hell of a lot better, and I’m damn glad for that.