September 14, 2010
Vague Talk About Specific Possibilities
I’ve been thinking a lot about Time Management.
Mostly in the context of adding way, way more to do to my schedule, and if I can pull it off.
Honestly, I think I’m pretty good with time management. I can normally fairly safely estimate the amount of time a task will take me to complete, and slot it in in a time where I know I will get it done. I understand how I work, and when I will be reluctant to work, and I can fit things in.
However, the one thing I can’t stand organizing and scheduling is my free time.
I hate having to parcel off my free time. I hate going “Here is the hour in which I will do a vidjeo gam.” I really dislike that. It turns the very act of relaxing into work, and it frustrates me. I know it sometimes frustrates Brer when I hate him constantly asking me when we can schedule viewings of shows we’re trying to watch together. It just makes watching it seem like more work.
All this potential stuff that I could add to my plate… all of it would start to require such strict scheduling of my time, in order to get my schoolwork done, that I feel like all my free time, not just some of it, would start to fall under scheduling concerns. Frankly, it scares me, because it makes me feel like I’ll never have time to unwind. I’m a creature of habit, but when I sit down to relax, I don’t want to feel forced into doing one thing or another. I want to be able to let my whims roam free for the first time that day. That’s what relaxes me. Just letting me do what I want, without worrying about deadlines or scheduling. At least for awhile.
I work best when I can set a cutoff time, where all the rest of my time that day is mine. That’s when I work best. I’ll have so much less opportunity to do that if I take this up. But it’s also a good opportunity. Arg.
I guess this is growing up. If you want to have cake AND eat cake, you have to get everything in gear to make it happen. I know I can make it happen. The question is more… will I be happy making it happen? That’s what I’m wondering. I don’t know the answer.
But I’ll try, and we’ll see.