August 12, 2010
How Stupid Of Me To Write This.
I’m on the verge.
It’s all coming to a head.
More overused metaphors.
I’m seriously so close. So very close.
Fuck.
The moment before is always the worst, you know? Once you get on stage, then it’s easy. Once things are out in the open, there’s no longer any problem. But until then, until you make that step… it’s painful. It’s crazy. It’s tough.
It’s very tough.
I’m going to make it through this, and I am going to be the better for it. Sometimes, I just need to tell myself that. Sometimes I need to keep myself going. Keep myself from running away. Locking myself in here, with this computer, and never coming out. But no, I don’t need to do that. I’m going to make it through this.
Fuck.