April 15, 2010
Panic Day
Tuesday fucking sucked.
It’s been a long time since I felt so out of control in my life. Everything started crashing down. I was sick in bed, assignments were due, I had been too sick to get them done… it was pretty awful. I was driving myself crazy with panic.
Maybe I’ve bitten too much off if 3 or so days of sickness can completely ruin me. Maybe I have too much going.
Maybe.
I’m going to catch up over the weekend. I’ll be okay. I’m the kind of person who is okay, and who will get things done correctly. Of that I have no doubt. But man, the panic I felt was… crazy… it was awful.
I really don’t want to feel that again.
Maybe I should think about rescheduling my stuff next semester to stop this… so it’s not like I’m working 3 jobs or whatever.