October 20, 2011

In Which I Overthink Talking About My Relationships.

I keep thinking I should get back to writing about the vidjeo gamez, but I keep wanting to talk about life. How boring is that?

Cara and I, as we often do, had a long conversation at work about stuff. This time, about relationships. She was confused about how people can bounce between significant others as quickly as they do. She was worried about her sister, among other things.

It’s in these sorts of conversations where one is supposed to respond, show how one relates via their own experiences, and offer advice from such. This is what I try to do, but I always seem to get odd responses from her. Like I’m telling her crazy things. I know she respects me, but it still just makes me wonder just how off my view on relationships is.

It’s not just the furry thing, although certainly I have taken what values from the fandom I like and incorporated them into my own. It’s of my own making, certainly. It’s obviously off a bit, if recent heartbreak-related issues of my own making have anything to say about it. At the same time, though, my view has left me open to bring in so many people into my life that I sure don’t want to leave, including my boyfriend. Is it that wrong, if it’s doing things that good? I’m not sure.

I mean, I wonder about this, but I don’t worry about it. Nothing about how I go about such things breaks my personal code or anything. None of it is a problem for anyone else. If they don’t want to be a part of it, it’s not a problem to me, and shouldn’t be to them. What I worry about is the idea that because I go about things the way I do, that I’m completely unrelatable. Like, is it getting in the way of having conversations like this with my friends? It shouldn’t, but if the conversation keeps coming to a halt because me trying to make reference to my life is awkward to bring up in company, it is kind of a problem. Isn’t it? I don’t know.

It just bothers me when it feels like I have to deny relationships I have, close friendships and in some cases loves, just because it’s unacceptable to bring those sorts of things to light. It feels like I belittle the connection I have. I probably feel that way from years of being squeamish about mentioning I had a boyfriend, because people would miss the point and think me a gay man instead of a bisexual woman. It really felt like I was being shitty to Brer by doing that, even though he told me, time and again, that he understood and it was okay. I don’t want to do that to any of my good friends. But then I overshare? I don’t know. It’s not anything I’m ashamed of, but maybe I should be.

Nah, I shouldn’t be. But still. A strange situation I keep finding myself in with this. I don’t know the solution.

October 18, 2011

Moving Day Linkdump and Minor Ramble!

I’m moving! I won’t have internet to write a bloeg tonight, but I don’t want to disappoint you. Therefore, have some links, fresh from the link factory.

Important pornography-related work is being done. The site is safe for work. Read. Learn.

A great game to practice editing skills. I should really send this to Susan.

They recorded video of the live DnD game at the last PAX! I still haven’t gotten to watch it, though. I’m sure it’s entertaining. Do wish there would be another podcast, however.

Anyway, there you go. Entertain yourself. I’m really kind of getting super stressed out about this move! But I’m just going to do it today, and move on. That’ll help. Accomplishing shit always helps that sort of thing, you know? I mean, I certainly hope so. Also, I’m off all day tomorrow, so I can really get things situated right if I’m over there. That will also help.

I… guess I best go shut this computer down and get moving! Bye, everyone! See you at the new place!

October 17, 2011

I Would Marry These Potato Chips, Or At Least Make Them My Chip Mistress.

Here is a story of a love affair between me and a bag of chips.

It also started one day, you see, like any other. I was buying a snack from the vending machine at work. I wanted one of my favorite chips: Baked Lays. I pressed the button. But oh no! I did not get Baked Lays at all, but Southwest Ranch Baked Lays! Disaster! Or maybe it was fate. The chips were fantastic, and I continued to buy them, instead of Baked Lays, from the machine.

However, recently, the machine stopped having Southwest Ranch Baked Lays stocked in them. You don’t realize how much you love something until it was gone. I craved those things. I went to the store and bought some, and ate like all of them. I destroyed that bag. I was in love.

Seriously, though, these chips are so damn good. They basically taste like a hot salsa has been baked into the chip somehow, perhaps using baking. It’s the only potato chip I’ve ever had that leaves a bit of a burning in your mouth after you eat a few of them. Like, you know, a good burning. A spicy burning. I love Baked Lays, but I understand many people think they are flavorless. This chip totally solves that problem. It is a fantastic use of a potato.

I am going to try very hard not to eat a million of these chips. I offer no promises. But seriously, I loved these chips so much that I added a thing on my list of blog topics to write about these stupid chips that said “Those Goddamn Chips”. Now I have. Mission complete.

October 14, 2011

Adventures In Installing OS Updates.

Now it is time to recount my iOS5 experiences for everyone to love and enjoy. Something like that.

On the morning of the fifth eyeohess, I downloaded an iTunes update. Well, I started it downloading. Then I went to work, and worked a fairly shitty shift. When I got back, I was so ready to put some iOS5 on my iPad, so I started it downloading. That took a damn long while, like over an hour. But that’s okay, now it’s going to start installing! Then I can use it! Neat.

I get something that says “Unexpected Error 3200.”
Well, maybe the fact that I didn’t reboot when it asked me to was part of it, I thought, so I rebooted, and tried again.
Same error.
Well, maybe I need another USB port. I moved the cord.
Same error.
It was then that I saw someone bitching about it on Twitter. Apparently the servers were overloaded, and that’s why I was getting this error that seemed to have nothing to do with servers. What a great error message, Apple! Thanks for that.

Anyway, I left to teach, and came back to try it again later. It worked that time! Installed and everything. Neat! But then it said “Restoring Apps.” There was a progress bar, but it wasn’t like, filling like a progress bar. My iPad, meanwhile, didn’t say it was syncing. iTunes seemed stuck. The stupid thing crashes on windows all the time, so I just force-quit it. When I opened it again, the same bar popped up. When I looked at my iPad, some of my apps were there, but others weren’t. Fantastic.
I just happened, though, at random, to notice it was actually adding more apps. Somehow. Without syncing. So I just kind of threw up my hands and left it there. When I came back from work, it was all fine. Working great now.

All in all, it was a pretty shitty experience! I don’t know. I’m not a huge Apple fangirl type person, but they always struck me as caring about not making their users go through this kind of thing over things like having features, and being able to do what you want it to. They just always seemed to go so far out of their way to restrict functionality to keep people from seeing that. Yet, here I am. I really did see all that! It was weird.

How’s iOS5? I don’t really know. All I cared about were the notifications, really, and I do have to say that the notifications are great. What they should have been in the first place. Glad they just blatantly stole them from Android. My various board game updates are very nicely organized now. That’s all I wanted, and I got it. Maybe some other feature will jump out at me at some point? I dunno. But notifications! And so on and so forth.

October 11, 2011

Links and Depression: A Winning Combination

It’s times like these when you have to look at the good things in life. Like links on the internet.

Today was pretty shit. I had to take action about a lot of things and stand up for myself. I don’t like that. I like being positive. But when people are being assholes to me, what are you supposed to do? Sometimes you just have to call a restaurant you were at and tell the manager about the awful experience you had of people making fun of you within earshot just so you can not let it ruin your whole fucking day, you know?

Anyway, links, motherfucker, do you have them? I have them. Well, some.

Been grading to the Napple Tale soundtrack recently. Damn, that’s just so good! Here’s a new favorite track from it. Just so excellent.

Great cosplay picture? Or the greatest cosplay picture? You decide.

Someone is really serious about the writing in Oblivion. I found this pretty impressive.

Here’s a nice interview about Poison. I personally would like it if they just embraced Poison as transsexual, of course, but at least it looks like they’re making sure they treat her with respect, even if they’re keeping her in a vague space. Also, she looks fun to play.

I should probably write more, something fun, but I’m not going to. I’m sorry. Today is all out of whack… sorry. I just don’t know how to deal with this. How did these completely assholes decide to come out of the woodwork all in the span of two days? It makes me feel a bit paranoid. I mean, people can think what they want about me. That’s fine. I think many things about many people. But I don’t understand why you shove that in someone’s face. Why do you make a big deal out of it? Why is it a problem, especially when you’re working and it’s a simple transaction.
I don’t even know what I’m saying. Sorry.

October 10, 2011

Internet Television…!

I know you all were scared, but you didn’t have to worry. I remembered what I wanted to talk about. The Roku!

I bought my parents a Roku a long time ago because I thought it would be a simple thing they could use to stream Netflix, and that my mom might like that. She used it a bit, certainly, and watched some TV shows. It was nice. Fast forward to the Netflix price hike, though, and my parents just totally killed their Netflix all together. Thus, the Roku was unused. So I basically stole it. Then I hooked it up in my room just because.

Roku is awesome.

It took me like 2 minutes to download the Giant Bomb channel and start streaming Whiskey Media stuff onto my TV. Somehow this damn thing streams better than my iPad does when I hook up a direct feed. It’s awesome. It’s magical. It’s exactly what I’d rather be watching in bed anyway!

In a few more minutes of fiddling, I had Tested on there, and Crunchyroll if I am desperate for an anime, and what’s best, Amazon Prime Video Streaming. I knew I had Prime Video Streaming, since I have and love Prime, but I never used it. However, damn, Roku makes it easy and a fun idea. I watched some Next Gen with little effort. Huzzah!

The only thing that’s been a complete disappointment so far is blip.tv. They say they have a Roku channel, and frankly, that would be great. How awesome would it be to be able to easily stream, I dunno, the latest Chip and Ironicus Let’s Play? Super awesome. That’s how awesome. But instead all you can watch is their “official” shows. I watch a TON of shit on Blip.tv, but nothing I watch is one of their “official” titles, so I can’t stream it. Obscenely stupid.

Really, the entire experience is just polished. It could be better with a keyboard, or a search in the channel store, or a slightly faster processor and/or RAM to get in and out of menus quickly. It also could really use a way for me to stream stuff from my PC: if I can get a 3 dollar app that does that to my iPad flawlessly, there has to be a way for me to do it on a Roku that isn’t a pain. That’s just about it, though. It’s just a damn good little device. It was totally worth what I paid for it. I now wonder if I’m going to have to buy a SECOND one for my house, so I can have one in the living room and one in the bedroom. I suppose we’ll see how much I use it. But I am enjoying it for now! Buy a fucking Roku and stream some shit too, hm?

October 7, 2011

Dog Theories

Molly has been really attached to me lately. People, including myself, have been trying to come up with theories as to why she’s sticking to me like glue and sleeping with me, when she’s never slept in my bed before, really, unless the parents were gone.

My mother’s theory is perhaps a bit too personified to be real. She believes that Molly is sleeping with me now because her and my father snore too much. While Dad, especially, is quite the snorer, I don’t really understand how this would be the case. Surely Molly would never have slept there if that’s something she actually minded.

My theory is self-centered. It’s also based on hormones, because that’s my reason for everything nowadays. (Only sometimes is it a joke.) My theory is that I must be smelling female to Molly now. I am really the only one who punishes her, and she listens to me more than other people. Because I’m now female, then, my theory is that in Molly’s mind, I have ousted my mother as the alpha female of our little pack, so she has to be all nice to me to earn favor. Again, kind of a self-centered theory.

Cara’s theory is one I didn’t consider. Cara thinks that Molly can somehow tell that I am about to move out and move somewhere else. I guess it’s one of the things that dogs can sense? Molly is trying to keep me around, so she’s trying to play nice so I will stay. I suppose that’s possible? But goodness, that’s some good intuition if Molly can figure that out. I don’t know what has really changed about my habits to have clued her in on that if it is true.

What is the real reason? I have no idea. But having Molly curled up with me is awesome. So no complaints here!

October 2, 2011

Frustrations and Venting

Let me just explain how the last couple of days went for me, frustration-wise. A little venting never hurt anyone, yes?

So, like, a month ago, I ordered some Pony shirts because I am that kind of person apparently. I got this one and this one. There was no notice that these were preorders or anything. I was hoping to have them before the new season started. That didn’t happen. It took about a month, and when the box got here, it had shirts in it that I did not order and would certainly never wear. I called the company, and was told that I should leave a message and would be called back “in a few minutes.” That didn’t happen, and I had to go to work.

This story has a happy ending, or at least the start of one. The customer service person DID get back to me, gave me a free shipping label for the wrong shirts, and said she is sending out my real order today by a quicker shipping method. She was very polite and nice when doing it, so I can’t fault her for that. Still, I’m certainly going to rethink ordering shirts from them again, as that as kind of crazy.

The other story is more up in the air.

For the past month, I have been trying to get this home loan thing finished. I’m closing on the house on the 7th, and everything needs to be good to go then. Throughout this month, I have had many panic moments, mostly having to do with a mutual fund I have. See, I gave them a statement for it, but it didn’t have page 3 and 4, which my mother destroyed because they had no information on it. I have, during various points this month, given them at least 3 OTHER documents with the information about the mutual fund on it that they would need. However, they are holding up my loan because I don’t have pages 3 and 4 of the original document.

Today, I found out, via a statement for an unrelated mutual fund, what is on pages 3 and 4 that my mother threw away. It’s ads. Pages 3 and 4 are nothing but ads for other services the mutual fund wants you to sign up for. My loan is being held up because they don’t have two pages of ADS. Makes me want to crack my skull against my desk.

I think we’ve finally got solutions in place (although this is about the third time I’ve thought that about this bullshit) and everything should be fine now. But gods, what a pain in the ass. I mean, yes, I am borrowing a bunch of money, but goddamn. They do this everyday. Something so stupid shouldn’t be an issue.

Hi! This paragraph is from me many hours after I wrote the previous one! Guess what? I’m totally screwed because I went to school! Isn’t that great?
Basically, we dealt with that bullshit, but then they decided that they have to use the amount of money I was making when I was a full-time student to determine the loan, as opposed to what I am making now. Because that fucking makes sense, right? So because I wasn’t working 40 hours a week while also teaching 20 hours a week and going to school full time, I now can’t get a loan. Which I was basically promised would not be any sort of issue for me to get. HOW FANTASTIC. *bangs head against desk*

Anyway, those are some of the anger-inducing things I’ve been dealing with! Hopefully your time is going a lot better.

October 1, 2011

Make Sure You Don’t Hurt Nobody.

LINKS! Goddamn I have a lot of links. Also, Chrome wants to restart for updates. So I bet be free of these links. LET’S LINKING!

On The Stick is starting a new October of articles this month! I have one coming later in the month! Yay! But you can read what they’re doing right now if you want. It’s sure to be good stuff!

I thought this was a pretty funny little video. It’s got, you know, jokes.

It’s Adventure Time, come on, grab your friends.

Two Memes, One Mashup.

Bask in horror upon the women of the future! What a strange place the future will be.

Why do I find this so funny? Because it’s hilarious. That’s probably why.

The quietest dinner ever.

Beware the COMPUTER CRIMINALS!

Finally, here’s some good advice from the Onion.

September 29, 2011

Top 6 Lists I Came Up With While Trying To Write A Blog

    List of Fighting Games I Am Excited For, Ordered By Amount of Excitement.

1. Persona 4: The Ultimate In Mayonaka Arena
2. My Little Pony: Fighting is Magic
3. Skullgirls
4. Ultimate Marvel Vs Capcom 3
5. Street Fighter X Tekken

    List of Japanese Shows I Am Currently Following, None of Which Essner Approves of

1. Mawaru Penguindrum
2. Usagi Drop
3. Nichijou
4. Game Center CX

    List of Candies I Purchase Too Often

1. Mike and Ike: Tangy Twister
2. Sweettarts
3. Nerds
4. Fruit Mentos
5. Laffy Taffy

    List of Games I Wish I Could Buy On Launch Day This Year, But Shouldn’t Because of Money

1. Kirby’s Return to Dreamland
2. Professor Layton and the Last Specter
3. Solatorobo

    List of Tumblrs I Check Daily

1. Fashion It So
2. Fillydelphia
3. Ask Pinkamina Diane Pie
4. Ask Princess Molestia

    List of Things I Don’t Really Know How To Use Properly But Use All The Time Anyway

1. Tumblr
2. Fashion Sense
3. IRC
4. Microsoft Excel
5. Anger