{"id":1952,"date":"2011-01-21T00:55:53","date_gmt":"2011-01-21T06:55:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/?p=1952"},"modified":"2011-01-22T00:18:28","modified_gmt":"2011-01-22T06:18:28","slug":"on-a-much-more-pleasant-note-happy-birthday-jonathan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/?p=1952","title":{"rendered":"On a Much More Pleasant Note, Happy Birthday, Jonathan."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>At any point I will break. I am at the point where getting new carpeting put in upstairs feels like it will destroy me. I will admit that I really, really hate this feeling, and I hate that I feel this way. I hate that I feel so lost here. I hate it.<\/p>\n<p>I hate it.<\/p>\n<p>I fucking hate it.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s not even <a href=\"http:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=Drp9o4E7G7U\">funny breaking<\/a>. It&#8217;s not useful. It&#8217;s not a motivator. I just feel crushed. The thing that crushed me was fucking new carpeting. I feel like such an idiot.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m empty and stupid and my life feels like way too much for me. I want to hide in bed until everyone goes away, for at least a few more weeks. Maybe then things will work out, but hey, I&#8217;m not holding my breath. Nothing works out.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m a functional, fairly hard-working person. Why am I so crushed? Why do I feel like this? I should function. I should work. Things should work out. God fucking dammit.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>At any point I will break. I am at the point where getting new carpeting put in upstairs feels like it will destroy me. I will admit that I really, really hate this feeling, and I hate that I feel this way. I hate that I feel so lost here. I hate it. I hate [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[8,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1952"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1952"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1952\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1956,"href":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1952\/revisions\/1956"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1952"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1952"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/getmeoutofthis.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1952"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}