I gave my parents a book on transsexualism the other day. It sort of filled my mom’s face with a look of terror for that moment, but then things calmed down. I wanted to read the whole book, but fuck, I am so busy, I just couldn’t. I read enough for it to hit several strong emotional spikes of “oh fuck, that is exactly what I was going through then” before I decided it was a good idea. There was especially a part where someone was talking about how they built many little perfect people of the right gender to send out into the world and interact, and they did so successfully, but the real her was left behind and lonely, along with the idea that “I could be anything I wanted to be except myself.” Struck home. I remember those times. I still do that, to an extent. Much less than I used to, but, damn. If reading those things could get Mom and Dad to get that concept? Then that is just… excellent.<\/p>\n
Anyway, I felt like it was important to give them the book for other reasons too. I feel like I need to keep driving home that this isn’t going away, that it is real, and that it’s going to continue. Not in a mean way. I don’t want to rub it in their face. But they need to realize I’m not sweeping this under the carpet. I need to have a polite hit like that every week to get them used to the idea, don’t I? Probably so.<\/p>\n
It’s been so tempting to run up to everyone I interact with and scream “I’m a woman” nowadays. I have a set plan, and this shit is going to happen. I want to celebrate with everyone I know. But it’s not right. I have to plan when I’m going to tell them, and I have to do it the right way. So I hold back. But it’s bubbling up inside me. It’s going to come out sooner or later. It’s going to be glorious.
\nJust got to be smart about this. Stay calm, do things the right way. I’m grown up enough for that nowadays. I can do it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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